Perceptions.

My perceptions of who I am define me.

I am 41 and a half. That is a fact. I feel 10 years younger. That is my perception of my age.

I was diagnosed as bipolar in 2011. That is a fact. After a hellish two years and one ok one later; I feel normal again. That may or may not be a perception. I depend on my therapist and my doctor to help me find the truth in that one.

I have rheumatoid arthritis. I hurt. My fingers are deformed. I was 12 when I was diagnosed.

I have a new job as an executive assistant. I feel proud of my new job and pleased at the lower level of stress I have compared to my old job. I perceive I have quite a future at this new company.

I was out of work for just over one year. My perception is that I was let go because I am bipolar. I know I should have fought them but my perception was to feel shame and hide. I lost a boyfriend and friends to bipolar disorder. What did I care if a job was added to the list? Things worked out in the end thanks to the support of my parents.

I am overweight.Big fact. I still feel sexy. My perception. My boyfriend thinks I am very sexy. Fact! (Smile) But, I still need to lose weight for my health. Fact.

I have a bird – Bridget – and a cat – Sparrow. They make me very happy. I hope I make them happy too. I think my perception on this one is right on!

That boyfriend I mentioned, well, he makes me very happy too. He frustrates me sometimes but I love him. He’s bipolar too. What are the odds?? My perception was it was fate. Having someone in my life to teach me what life is like when you are bipolar has been immeasurable. Someone to make me happy has been priceless. Someone to listen to me and someone who sticks around during the rough times? Sigh. That means the world.

So these are some of my perceptions. Little pieces of me that float around and come out from time to time. They may not always be facts but they are truthful.

Thanks for listening.

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Crucial Quotes # 38

“There is a fountain of youth: it is your mind, your talents, the creativity you bring to your life and the lives of people you love. When you learn to tap this source, you will truly have defeated age.”

– Sophia Loren (born September 20, 1934)

Italian Actress

Sabbatical Fulfilled

My last blog post was almost three months ago to the day. With so many personal and professional changes over the past year I needed to put somethings on the back burner while they were addressed.

Things seem to have hit a rhythm and I am slowing adding activities back to my daily mix. I am excited that blogging in now off the back burner and back on the menu. (Uncontrollable pun – I could not help myself).

Crucial Quotes #32

“The goal is always to get better. I think that should be everybody’s approach in life in whatever they choose to do … I’d like to see what I can do to raise the bar higher.”

Tim Thomas (born April 15, 1974)

American NHL goaltender

In 2011 Tim Thomas won the Stanley Cup, the Conn Smythe Award as playoff MVP and the Vezina Trophy as top goaltender yet still thinks he can do better. As a fellow Aries I love the type A, overachieving, good isn’t good enough personality. Congratulations on a great year in hockey Timmy. You are an inspiration.

Moody Monday #2 Stronger

It amuses me to use this picture for my mood today.

If you recognize it then you will glimpse how much more capable I feel regarding the tasks before me.

(I hope that coffee mug is still at Barnes and Noble. If it is I will be buying it for myself!)